I actually sat down this morning and started to write a post which was actually pretty depressing and mopey. But that’s because, for the past few days I have been pretty depressed and mopey. And ANXIOUS! But, in typical adoption emotional roller-coaster fashion, I am now happy and giggly and even did a little dance on my way to the mailbox this morning.
Just 5 short days ago I was so excited that LBB was in the [Home Country] and was pretty much at peace with the idea of waiting a few weeks for news about my kids. And then it happened. I saw 1 picture of 1 beautiful little girl eating a lollipop and I lost it. Suddenly every second that passed without pictures was an eternity and every day with an empty inbox meant that something terrible had happened and the whole thing was off! This morning I woke up convinced that there were no pictures coming anytime soon and I had pretty much resigned myself (again!) to a long and lonely wait. And then I checked my email. Now, I’m on top of the world because I have new pictures and info. about my sweet little loves!
This roller-coaster can be exhausting, confusing, and sometime a little nauseating. But today it is awesome! Today my hands are up, the wind is on my face, and I am screaming with excitement! I have no idea what tomorrow will hold, but I know that today is a good day so I’m just going to focus on that and enjoy it! And, of course, I’m gonna share it! So get ready to see new pictures of 2 of the most beautiful kiddos ever!
Our coordinator said that [A] is “destined to be a ball player” and that he is big and strong. She also used the word “gorgeous” and I am inclined to agree. So handsome!
She described [G] as petite with a “good dose of attitude!” She should fit in just fine around here. And Lord have mercy, look at those eyes! She is just beautiful!!!
Our coordinator also took them lollipops that we sent along with the donated clothes so that she would have a way of warming the kids up to the strange white lady with the camera. Apparently they have been a big hit, especially with [G]! She said that [G] was pinching [A] trying to get his sucker in addition to hers and thought it was hysterical when they stopped her. It sounds like somebody is going to be a lot of fun. I’m just thrilled to finally see a picture with a smile from her! I knew it was in there, it just took some candy to bring it out! Luckily we still have a big ol’ bag of lollipops ready and waiting.
I feel so blessed today to finally have some pictures. And even better than that, to hear something personal about each of them! That soothes my soul more than y’all could possibly know. Just this small connection makes them seem real and close again and that feels wonderful. It, of course, also makes me more anxious than ever to be holding them myself but that is coming! Seeing their sweet, beautiful faces will help me make it through this wait with my sanity intact and knowing they are healthy and safe will help me sleep at night. And did I mention that they’re gorgeous? Oh man, are they beautiful! And I am happy! Happy, happy, happy, happy! Thank you Lord! And thank you S.!