Double ugh.
How was your Saturday night? Mine stunk. I went to bed feeling fine but woke up about 1:30 with the beginnings of a migraine. Ugh does not even begin to cut it. There is little on this earth that I am more afraid of than a migraine. And that fact totally stinks because they come from inside of me! There is no escape! I’m constantly scared of my brain. Not a happy reality. But also not a huge deal most of the time. I’m incredibly anal careful about my diet, my routine, and my sleep patterns and, most of the time, I live a migraine-free existence. They usually hit about once every 6 months, which in perspective, is not a bad deal. And even when they come, they only last about 6 hours. Again, I realize that, as a cross to bear, I’ve got it much better than many others. My problem is that when they come, they are just awful. They are just so damn awful. I just freaking hate them. So. Very. Much.

To be honest, this is one great thing about adopting. These stupid things are usually hereditary (thanks Mom!) and I’m so happy to know that I won’t be passing this genetic nightmare onto [A] and [G]. They might still get them at some point, but at least it won’t be my fault if they do! They’ll most likely just have to put up with my whining about mine.

Anyway, this post is not about me asking for sympathy. It’s about me asking for prayer. One of my biggest worries throughout this whole process has been that I’ll get one (or more) while we are traveling. That would not be ideal. That would actually be terrible. While my migraines are certainly not life threatening, they are temporarily debilitating. During the 3 phases of the process, I lose my vision, I lose my lunch, and I often feel like I’m going to lose my mind. These are not exactly great traveling conditions. And I definitely don’t want to spend any of my first few days with my children locked in the bathroom for 6 hours. Please pray that I will be migraine free in the days that we are traveling to, around, and from the [Home Country]. It is so very important to me that this trip go as smoothly as possible and that I am able to be 100% for [A] and [G] because I know this is going to be a difficult transition for them. As I said before, I am constantly working to control all the triggers and factors that I can that surround my migraines. But one of the biggest triggers for me is also one of the hardest to control and that is STRESS. I’m feeling the strain now and I know it’s just not going to get any easier over the next few weeks so I’m going to need some help! It’s actually been 6 months since my last one and I’m hoping that God was helping me get the next one out of the way in the comfort of my own bed last night so that I can just relax and enjoy the biggest trip of my life! We’re so close to finally having the family we’ve waited on for almost a year. I don’t want my broken brain to mess things up! So your prayers would definitely be appreciated!!!

Also:

• My husband is awesome. He’s always willing to sit up with me (even at 1:30 in the morning) during the vision loss stage. That part is the worst to me and I appreciate his selflessness more than he will ever know! After we had just started dating many many moons ago, I got a migraine (coincidence?) and I called him up at like 3 in the morning. He was super sweet and stayed on the phone with me and talked me through it with nothing but concern for me. It was one of the first times I realized that he was a keeper!

• My cats are awesome. When the vomiting started, I decided to spare [L] that pretty picture and just let him sleep. But my Betty-girl must have known that I didn’t want to be alone. So she sat with me on the bathroom floor for an hour and comforted me and even jumped up on the tub to rub my head with her paw. No lie. I am so loved.

• The entire night I also had a stupid Nickleback song stuck in my aching head. As if I wasn’t suffering enough?!? Pity me.

3 days until our Embassy appointment!